Introduction

My life was going successful for 25 years according general standards. Step by step I did all well, but my life was focused to career- good education and good job, it means good salary and assured life. But I forgot the main thing- listening to my heart, finding joy and happiness of my life. After 25 years long routine it happened- I started to make list with values and priorities of my life and started looking for possibilities that life is giving to us, looking for my way! And now I'm here in United States! If year ago somebody would told me that, I should thought- he is crazy, but no I'm sure that all is possible. Be brave and don't feared from changes!

Background

I grew up in the wonderful family. Our parents worked very hard to provided us with good education and prepared for life as well as they could, so I did all things with very high responsibility. I am the oldest child so maybe it was the reason why I wanted become independent as fast as possible. Most of my time I studied hard and when I was 21 years old I started to work in the international company like accountant's assistant. In that moment I was happy, because I got a job in area where I studied, in a big company and I saw a lot of challenges here! And it was true- in the next four years I became to a chief accountant. I had a good salary, I could rent my own apartments, I bought a car...I get all things about that I had dreamed before. But instead of that I paid with all my time- my life was my job, no limits. Very often I spent my holidays and my nights in office. Reason was my responsibility for job, I tried to be perfect. We had ten people in finance department but I feared trust to others, I wanted to take control of all, because I was responsible of result for Head of company. My body was tied, I had a lot of stressful situations. It was April 2009 when I left my office at 4 am, it was moment when I broken! I felt like my eyes were closed all that time, I opened my eyes and asked myself- why!? What is the purpose? And than I understood that it isn't the joy of life! I was completely forgotten about my personal life, about my personal goals like a young women... I was lost part of my personality, forgotten about my personal dreams and expectations!

Professional issue

When I was a student maths was one of my favorite subjects. In my childhood I had two professional examples- my parents, they worked at school, they are teachers and my aunt, she is accountant. My parents spent a lot of time in their job and when they came home, they never stopped working or thinking about their job, but in result all the time we lived very economical, we had to plan and save money hard, because teachers in my country aren't the most reach people, but in the same time my aunt had never worried about money. So in the time when I needed to make decision for my career it was easy for me- I chose studied economic and finance and I started to work as accountant. I enjoyed my studies, I loved to figure and I really enjoyed the moment when I got the result. To see result of my work makes sense of satisfaction! Feeling that I did something well is very important for me, it makes my life valuable. I started to work and in the first time I loved my job, I was sure that accountancy is for me. I felt very comfortable, because I could do all things that I had entrust to do. I was a successful, to career focused girl! Every day I learned new things, but than in a moment it stopped. It was the moment when I had worked for one year as a chief accountant. There was a point when two main things met together- like a chief accountant I was responsible for our department work and people's motivation, not only for financial things in the company, and in the same time in my accountancy work was starting kind of routine work, every day I did one and the same activities and that wasn't more interesting for me, so I started to lose motivation. But I discovered that management of department I like more better than booking. I was surprised that the profession about that I was sure all the time, maybe is not the best for me!? And I became in front of choice- keep going and do job that I knew without interest or go ahead and to start looking for new challenges and possibilities. I chose the second way! I left my comfort zone, took all my experience and came to United States for one year with goal to know more about world around me, to know more about cultures and people, to learn from others people's life experiences, and to know more about myself! I don't know what I will do after one year but the main discover that I have got is that working hard isn't bad if you love your work, but if you don't enjoy it than you will lose your motivation soon. For me motivation is the main thing that makes me feel happy and comfortable. I don't know is it good or bad feel comfortable, but I know that to feel happy every day is the biggest gift of the life!

Personal issue

In my life was time when I tried to be good for all. I didn't listen to my heart I worked for others. But life change my mind and I have understood, that you never will be good for all and nobody in this life is perfect. I have my time and that I have supposed to spend efficient, in harmony according my wishes and expectations. I can't do all, but I can define my values and priorities and to follow them. If two years ago I thought that I know what I will do, how my life will go than now I don't know nothing about that. I'm trying enjoy every day and taking all possibilities that life is giving to me. I try to be brave and forget about fears, because if you don't try you will never know is it for you or not.